Hi Mandy,
How do you know that you are a Christian first of all? Let me ask you two questions and please answer both if you would be so kind:
1. Do you know if you died right this very instant that you would find yourself in Heaven?
2. When you stand before God and He asks you what right you have to be there, what will you say?
First let me say, that I am not sure where your line of questioning is going. But, I will answer your questions. I know that every single day I live my life making mistakes and seeking God's forgiveness. I've read the scriptures where God accounted righteousness to Abraham, not because he was, for we are all sinners, but because Abraham earnestly sought God and to serve him. It is only by the grace of God and his promises that I believe if I died I would go to Heaven. Although I am constantly aware of my own unworthiness and this keeps me striving to seek God and his will for my life and my family's life. As for your second question:
"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." (John 3:16) I BELIEVE.
"But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners. Christ died for us." (Romans 5:8)
"That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved." (Romans 10:9)
I HAVE.
When/If God asks me what right I have to enter his kingdom, I will tell him, that I am a servant of his son, that he called me and set me apart, that I am his daughter of zion as he has spoken it.
I hope that has answered your questions.
I do want to add, that I am not questioning my salvation, and that was not the point, as I am sure you are aware, of my questions. I am seeking further understanding of scriptures that have been on my heart and in my mind over the last few weeks.
Sincerely,
Mandy