I know much about my illness, and I take medication, but sometimes things get a little out of control. It's all mental for me. I traced my OCD back to child hood as well. It's a blessing and a curse. It forces me to flush out ANY doubt, yet it can be self-destructive at the same time. But thank you, I found my way here because of my OCD. I wanted answers, and Yeshua was right there with me, guiding me. I know that through my experience I love the Jewish people more and I pray for Israel. But nevertheless, I'm rambling on...
Thank you, I will pray for everyone here.
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I know much about my illness, and I take medication, but sometimes things get a little out of control. It's all mental for me. I traced my OCD back to child hood as well. It's a blessing and a curse. It forces me to flush out ANY doubt, yet it can be self-destructive at the same time. But thank you, I found my way here because of my OCD. I wanted answers, and Yeshua was right there with me, guiding me. I know that through my experience I love the Jewish people more and I pray for Israel. But nevertheless, I'm rambling on...
[Robert]; I believe sometimes we ; as Believers are given obstacles, as Job. Paul even speaks of the thorn of flesh he must bear, to keep him humble. I suffer from attention deficit, and narcalepsy;and severe trauma arthritis; a condition that if I didn't take meds ; I would sleep for 22 hours a day; from the brain injury I had. I think it keeps us humble , and questioning our discernment ,and wisdom; That is wisdom! to open yourself to thinking all your understanding is subject to change if the truth is set before you. I believe also that is why Yeshua spoke in high regards to children; as open vessels to be filled, and willing to recieve correction. That is wisdom ;[ to know we are imperfect and willing to recieve teaching]. It seems I have all the answers , and healing for others , but I cannot heal the wounds within myself. I count it for glory; that G-d has given me this gift. After my injury ; I was given a IQ test, and the memory part was low, but when it came to solving visual puzzles , and riddles; they said my score was off the charts, and no one had ever answered the questions. It stimulates me to find the answers on this post, and I feel I have found my place that G-d will use me! [ Yeshua is real and the answers hidden like a puzzle] G-d makes up in one way to compensate another. and I see it as a gift. We must find that gift , and use it. Know who you are and not what voices say you are!. or others expect you to be. I have found compassion unlocks the door of listening more than just words , and scripture phrases! You are a gifted writer, and I feel your compassion in all your posts. That heart is where G-d will use you!Write the words from your heart that come fromG-d! Shalom.
Dear LORD, all who claim Him above all names!
I am praying for my Mom, Judith, my Uncle, Harry and my friend, Diana. Below is a note Diana sent to me. I have put into parenthesis the two sections most disturbing to me. She..does not know, having not been informed..is more like it ...of all the Mother's Day cards I sent and the Birthday presents I sent to My Mom. She is being lead down a path of accusation not wanting to know my situation....I not the person she accuses me to be..Here is her letter to me:
Kim:
Hi. So, how are things in Alaska? Hope all is well.
Sunday I visited with your Uncle, and he mentioned that Thursday is your mother's birthday. He wanted to buy her something special, but of course he is unable to get out. I asked what he wanted to get, and he said "White Shoulders" cologne.
((((((Harry also mentioned that they do not know where you are. I thought you would at least give them your address or something? Why are you hiding? Why are you punishing your mother by not telling her where you are? What is the point? They will certainly not follow you, but it hurts a mother when her child hides from her.))))))
I am so blessed in that my daughter and I are close. I do not try to tell her how to live her life, as it is hers alone to make that decision. If I had my choice, of course I would want her to go to church and take her family; however that is not what she wants now. I cannot tell her how to live, and she does not try to tell me how to live. Your mother loves her brother and likes caring for him. That is not bad - that is her life and she deserves to live it her way. She does take time for herself, as Sunday she left Harry for the entire afternoon and visited friends.
((((((Please stop punishing her for not living her life YOUR way. She certainly does not try to tell you how to live, and you should give her the same opportunity.))))))
Just thought I would share those things with you. Countryside is having a "Military Appreciation Day" on June 28. Uncle Harry said he would go, except he has some pressure sores that are just not healing and he is unable to get out. I pray for him and your mother. He is not a bad person, although he is not the person you want him to be.
I am praying for you and hope all is well. God bless and may He bring you peace in the knowledge that God is in control of the lives around you, including those of your mother and Uncle.
Your friend,
Diana
in my response I stated only this:
Hi Diana;
I liked your note, it was too funny for words.
Bye for now,
Kim
I need guidance,but from friends who have no desire to stand by me.that is not guidance, it is just folly on my part!
please pray for me, too.
bye for now,
kimberly
I ask prayer for a womans mother ,a friend of mine who was diagnosed with breast cancer. She is in her 80's , and recently broke her ankle as well. She is a very nice lady, and believes in Christ. Please pray for her healing . Thankyou. In His glory Thankyou Yeshua. Also I am in still great pain from damaged joints , and just tore a rotor cup , on top of my foot , and knee , and jaws , and neck. My finger even hurts to type. Thanks again , Robert. I continue to pray for all here at JFJ.Your very heartfelt people , and I feel I have found many friends , that agree , and disagree, but we all agree ; Come Oh Lord of Israel , and end the pain, and bring the love of Heaaven forth,That is Immanuel;in the chosen; Israel Shalom.
I have another prayer request for myself. The 25th. of June I am having an operation on my face , and my jawline straigtened,so they can make my teeth fit in the proper occlusion, and my eyes operated on to see better. I told the doctor ;I know how important it is to look handsome in business to be succesful, so I asked him to make me look like Bill Gates! [ just kidding], but it is a risky operation , and I will be absent for a week or so from this forum. I also have more surgeries coming ! I am in constant pain,but I feel so alive despite the physical pain! My joy is so overwhelming ,and I feel G-d has set my place here among you! I have grown to love you people; Ben Masada ,Ripleys , Chow woman , devekuth, ben Avraham, Arley, Chayim, Kimberly, sugarman, Neotro,[ I have trouble remembering names!, but I love you all! Pam my Partner ; is completely worried for me.We live in a large log cabin and a wildlife habitat on the top of of a wooded ridge, overlooking a creek and wetland passed down from Pam's inheritance, that I have rebuilt , and maintain [We have a cerificate from Washington D.C.] We have enomous flower gardens , and animals ;deers , raccoons, 2 foot tall Red headed woodpeckers , owls, groundhogs, coyotes, cats , and you name it critters!aand will be hard to maintain through my surgeries but Our love is greater than mere flesh. . Pam has given me so much of herself, as her first husband died of brain cancer , and she taught me patiently giving her love and guidance , and spiritual counseling to me after my head injury. I love Pam more than words can say, she loved me when I had nothing and I have now more than I ever had ! My words I give to you on these forums are also her words, and teachings. She has the gift of discernment, and that is not a popular gift among others , as most people don't really like to hear the truth!But I thank all who will pray for me.I know G-d gave me life when in all explanations of logic I should be dead! I was given grace, as I did not believe in G-d,I was a ruthless person; handsome ,cunning and decieving , and used whoever I could manipulate into getting what I desired, and I hurt many people ; I was a scoundrel! but He made me believe, and humbled me ! Does that make sense to anyone?When I thought my life was over ! It was just beginning. I hope , and pray for the peace of Israel! I love the people , and thier cultures , and traditons ,and worship ,and only wish that they remain , and grow in thier heritage so long awaited , and pray for thier promise fulfilled.I have learned so much from thier love! ,and knowledge . Together ; we shall understand G-d! thankyou! I will continue my tithe faithfully to your ministry[JFJ], and soon will be more! in Christ our Lord. Shalom
When we agree to anything on earth...that means anything that is within the word of God and in His will...we can make a difference. I have several requests for JFJ people please.
1. My grandbaby Emma has taken a turn for the worse, they took her off her meds gradually to see what she would do, she is worse now that before. I ask not just for her body but more for her spiritual condition to be with Jesus. I ask the same for her parents Terry and Marcee, that they would confess their sins, repent, and follow G*ds precepts.
2. Please again, this nagging woman, ask with her whole heart that you would ask G*d to intervene on the Obama administrations decision regarding accepting same-sex marriages by removing the DOMA or Defense of Marriage Act that each state has enacted to preserve traditional marriage and protect this most sacred and holy institution originated by the Most High. We know satan is pissed and he is sensing his doom in the future and for that he is coming at us full force, we must not give up, or give in but perservere. I ask that G*ds people, both Jew and Gentile, alike would draw close together in these times of spiritual persecution and that we stay focused on defending marriage and woman and children primarily. Yes, men too. But the weaker of the world must be protected first, just a spiritual law we must follow.
I have so much to ask but today I hope to give back to G*d if hell let me do so. G*d bless Israel. And not let us Christians focus on what the world does to us, not blame one another, but REJOICE IN GOD, for we have much to REJOICE about. Shalom
When we agree to anything on earth...that means anything that is within the word of God and in His will...we can make a difference. I have several requests for JFJ people please.
1. My grandbaby Emma has taken a turn for the worse, they took her off her meds gradually to see what she would do, she is worse now that before. I ask not just for her body but more for her spiritual condition to be with Jesus. I ask the same for her parents Terry and Marcee, that they would confess their sins, repent, and follow G*ds precepts.
2. Please again, this nagging woman, ask with her whole heart that you would ask G*d to intervene on the Obama administrations decision regarding accepting same-sex marriages by removing the DOMA or Defense of Marriage Act that each state has enacted to preserve traditional marriage and protect this most sacred and holy institution originated by the Most High. We know satan is pissed and he is sensing his doom in the future and for that he is coming at us full force, we must not give up, or give in but perservere. I ask that G*ds people, both Jew and Gentile, alike would draw close together in these times of spiritual persecution and that we stay focused on defending marriage and woman and children primarily. Yes, men too. But the weaker of the world must be protected first, just a spiritual law we must follow.
I have so much to ask but today I hope to give back to G*d if hell let me do so. G*d bless Israel. And not let us Christians focus on what the world does to us, not blame one another, but REJOICE IN GOD, for we have much to REJOICE about. Shalom
I thank Yeshua for Emma's full healing , and claim that healing in His promise. As far as Obama ; He just enacted that government employees gay spouses be given thier benefits yesterday.I can only pray for G-d's will be done. I also am going to a building downtown Indy that I was asked to design the layout for. It's a secret place for batterred women and children to go , and I feel so bad I cannot do physical construction on it, because of my health .They are short of funds [ It's through the Salvation Army , and church], They need clothing and living accomodations, wigs, funds, and I feel a bit overdrawn for such an important work. That is where my Lord is ; In the midst of hurting souls to give comfort. I can get a verifiable secured address if anyone wants to donate ; I leave to go there in an hour with a tornado on the way.! Please pray for this project to succeed. Thats the most gift anyone could give [ In Yeshu'a name ; Robert]Emma will be okay. I heard His voice ! Love in Christ!I agree with you, as you with I, Shalom
May Robert and Hope7 both receive from the LORD fulfillment as an answer to their prayer requests. May the LORD see them through, and re-establish the communion with them as they go into uncharted waters ahead. Communion and fellowship with the LORD abound, in their days, and may the satisfaction come, and may the Peace that transcends understanding come; May the LORD rebuke the enemy as only He can, and may the days become short that cause doubt. And the Moments that edify, become as eons...
All this I bless with His blessing on Robert and Hope7
bye for now,
kimberly
Thank you Kimberly. I accepted the assignment for the batterred womens shelter, and have an army of young people to direct, and funds, and donations pouring in. I wept to see women and children with only a dirty shirt on thier back and bruises on pregnant girls face's. The rooms were empty , and much is needed . I feel overwhelmed! But I need to take what the Lord showed me. Let it go , and let G-d! I wonder each day if I will wake up from my sleep. I feel so ill, but my spirit feels so strong. I found out now my rotor cup is torn in half!, and I am having lung problems when I lay down , as they fill with fluid. I ask for prayer that G-d will give me the strength to fulfill this task, as the many others I also do! I did not sleep last night , because I felt I might not wake up. When I feel sorry for myself, I see these people , and I help , and give, and the Lord every time never fails to work a miracle within me , God Bless all!
I ask for prayer for my health. I wake up almost every night , and can't breathe,choking for air.My friends think I I look like death. I wonder sometimes;Is that a bad thing? I sure would love to be in heaven, but I know there is so much need , and people needing me , and depending on me , and the witness of Yeshua must continue, so it is not death I am afraid of, I guess it's living.My prayer today is for comfort and healing of all who read this post, and prayer for my loved ones, and those in need of healing! G-d is not finished with me yet! He sure has a way of keeping me humble!