07-14-2009, 03:11 PM
Most (though not all) Messianic Jews believe in assurance of salvation and eternal security. It is therefore distressing for them to meet former Messianics like me, who have embraced Orthodox Judaism. The standard response is, "You must never have been saved in the first place."
I assure you all that if you had only known me back when I was a Messianic, you would have said, "Wow, that guy's on fire for Jesus." I had give my life over to Jesus, asked him into my heart, and begged him to wash away my sins, just like it says in all the pamphlets. WWJD was the guiding principle of everything I did. Everyone who knew me said I would be a powerful witness to the Jewish people. When I left Messianic Judaism, none of my friends tried to say I was never really saved, because they all knew me and knew that I was for real.
I was intrigued when I heard about Rabbi Tovia Singer's tapes. That was my first exposure to anyone who knew Isaiah 53 and Daniel 9, yet didn't believe in Jesus, and I wanted to know why. I would then be better equipped to witness to Jews about "the truth and beauty of our lord and savior, Jesus Christ". Perhaps I would win over Rabbi Singer himself.
At the same time, I was humble enough to admit I didn't know everything. Because of the eternal stakes involved, I was scared to consider the possibility that he was right - but I stood on the promise of Jeremiah 29:13 and prayed for divine guidance as I listened. I started listening at 2:00 that night, and continued listening until 12:00 the next day - and there has been no looking back.
BTW, not that it proves anything, but the feeling I got when I first asked G-d into my heart is still there.
I assure you all that if you had only known me back when I was a Messianic, you would have said, "Wow, that guy's on fire for Jesus." I had give my life over to Jesus, asked him into my heart, and begged him to wash away my sins, just like it says in all the pamphlets. WWJD was the guiding principle of everything I did. Everyone who knew me said I would be a powerful witness to the Jewish people. When I left Messianic Judaism, none of my friends tried to say I was never really saved, because they all knew me and knew that I was for real.
I was intrigued when I heard about Rabbi Tovia Singer's tapes. That was my first exposure to anyone who knew Isaiah 53 and Daniel 9, yet didn't believe in Jesus, and I wanted to know why. I would then be better equipped to witness to Jews about "the truth and beauty of our lord and savior, Jesus Christ". Perhaps I would win over Rabbi Singer himself.
At the same time, I was humble enough to admit I didn't know everything. Because of the eternal stakes involved, I was scared to consider the possibility that he was right - but I stood on the promise of Jeremiah 29:13 and prayed for divine guidance as I listened. I started listening at 2:00 that night, and continued listening until 12:00 the next day - and there has been no looking back.
BTW, not that it proves anything, but the feeling I got when I first asked G-d into my heart is still there.