I just found out I have colon cancer.
Think about it. The blessing of the Etrog is the feeling of being blessed.
YOu see the bright happy color.
YOu smell the smell.
This was on the radio that the taste of a lemon makes you feel more happy.
Suffering was always a puzzel to me.
BUt I just heard somethign that made the most sense to me ever.
God whispers in you daily pleasurese but yells at us in our pain.
God is yelling at Chad.
Chad if Gd is yelling at you He is yelling, I LOVE YOU WITH AN EVER LASTING LOVE, and maybe He is calling you Home. You lucky bum! The green grass is going to feel so cool and when you lay down on it so peacefully you will rest. I will pray for you and I hope that it can be operated or treated but if not dont be too sad. Its like driving a clunker and trading it for a Ferrari...you feel comfortable with the clunker but the sports car is beyond your wildest dreams!
Heres a littel pick me up so you know that we are all in a battle of some sorts. Gd is your victor against your Goliath, cancer, and you have support and prayers with you today and always! Here is my little pick er upper.
I was mysteriously invited back to a blogging site two days ago and I am grateful to have had one day to share Jesus and my faith again but it was a set up in a way. When I went back I started a threat at
www.politicalforum.com a site notoriously mean to Christians titled, DISCRIMINATION AGAINST CHRISTIANS BY LIBERAL PROGRESSIVES PUSHING HOMOSEXUAL AGENDA's and told your google story and how it coincided with Bostons City Hall Tranny bill debockle. And this is what they did to me:
The next day Shiva a moderator who has been nasty to me with infractions and suspensions in the past changed the title of my threat to something completey different stating the title was deceptive. PS Not so
I have had it with this site so I told them to change it back or I would leave and not return. They not only refused to change it back they deleted the whole thread with its pro's and con's replies.
I left this site for good. But not before I had a full day of sharing the gospel and trying to show that they had choices in life and that the make out session they are planning in front of a church is wrong. This is the reason they will lose the battle, no scruples, no respect of others, just sexual orgies in front of churchs...youd think they have a little respect for a Holy Gd but hey its their eternity. I know where Im going....DO YOU?
Some ask when will you stop speaking out and getting kicked around and my answer is NEVER! I refuse to go back to some sites but why would I let a bully control my life choices again? I am not afraid of them and I know they are sadistic in their attacks on Christians but that does not effect the fact that if we do not continue to try and stop them, and we will because Gd will help us,then our children and the next generation will be attacked by them too and with no role models to folllow or knowledge of Gds power in circumstances like these will not know that Gds team is the winning team ALWAYS. Choose Gd and you might have to face a few ugly giants but victory is assured. Gd bless Israel both the physical and the spiritual Israel. Every time I bless Israel Gd blesses me. His word is true and Holy just like Him.
I just found out I have colon cancer.
Suffering was always a puzzel to me.
BUt I just heard somethign that made the most sense to me ever.
God whispers in you daily pleasurese but yells at us in our pain.
God is yelling at Chad.
kinda like running a race. you feel so alone. there's just you, and the finish line. there is pain and fatigue beyond imagination. if only it would end. if only it would end. if only. but one does not want to dwell on the pain but must grit ones teeth to make it to the finish line, in front of the other athletes, and if not, to run as best as one can possibly run. but if you listen closely, very closely you are not alone. there's a medic standing by the side of the track. there are fans cheering you on in the stadium. there's a referee there watching it all very very closely. the fans for you are cheering, watching. they are there, willing you to the finish line. they feel your fatigue and pain, and when you stumble so they sigh, and when you kick so they roar. one does not readily notice them when one is running, because one is concentrating on the race, but that doesn't mean they aren't there. and the pain all vanishes when you finish and are rewarded for your efforts with a prize first place. glory and honour and your name recorded for all posterity to see (unless of course someone breaks your record).
in every race pain is temporary. but first place lasts forever.
Chad,
I dont know you but I would like to share my life story with you. Lately Gd has been answering prayers almost instantaneously, its strange, I dont understand it at all. If I need something, THERE IT IS, I can only say that it must be because I am speaking out about what injustice was done to me and that I am trying to live by Gds word that we overcome evil with good. Gd is good. He is the only thing that is truely,purely good. So we can use logic, and supreme wisdom, also from Gd, but Gd is the element that overcomes evil, nothing we do will ever overcome evil. Oh nature is fabulous, innocence is darling,lifes moments of gentle breezes is too wonderful for words, but only our Gd is good! I am finding the more brave I am in the midst of struggles the more I see Gds hand at work, oh dont think Im wearing rose colored glasses, I just laughed...thats something noone these days will accuse me of but I can tell you with a sincere heart that if it werent for Gd life would not exist for any of us....anything in life that makes your heart/soul/spirit happy is from Gd.
Heartache its all around us, crushing us, disappointing us, but heaven is real, as real as Gd and He is real. I look forward to our service to Gd together in heaven someday, sooner or later, perferably sooner...dont take this as morbid, life is not all its cracked up to be but heaven is beyond words!! Imagine the best Bible Study you ever attended and how the sweet aroma of Gds presence was there and you could see him in everyones face and in the midst of all of you was Gd's Holy Spirit himself and how really, really good that felt. Imagine now the day you first accepted Jesus as Saviour and that blanket of warmth feel over your soul. That is what sitting in the presence of Gd is like and heaven is in the presence of Gd at all times. Our faces will be in a perm. state of smiling and laughing, joking and learning, skipping and dancing, praising Gd, and crying with joy unspeakable. I am told we will have homes and I know I wont have to worry about mold and termites and repairs. I hope Gd lets me work with the animals up there I so love them and they so love me. I found another dog today and Im working on a home for himm now. He is a male lab mix, has not problems with cats, obeys commands, and follows me around like he loves me. I will hate to part with this dog he is unlike my unruly but I cant let my first dog go for the better second one, its just not fair, I wish I could have acres in the country to have as many dogs/cats as I wanted to and had the means to care for them. That would be my heaven! Someday!
PS. I always have a PS dont I. I laughed after rereading my I found another dog today because when my daughter and I talked about it she said this was #11 in one years time and that people would start to say I was a dog napper! I laughed! THis one came to me this morning at approx. 6 am as I looked outside to see what my Riley dog was barking at two dogs where in the alley way and I did not recognize them. I saw they had collars and knew that meant owners so I thought Id catch them and call the owners right. Well one dog, the lab mix came right to me, the other took off running like a bat out of hell! The collar this one has had no phone number or anything on it so I called to let animal control know if someone calls I have their dog. I canvased the whole neighborhood dog in tow and on one claimed this really nice dog. I will run an add Monday but if no luck Ill be back out there holding a "FREE DOG" sign again just like ugly dog I hope to find this one a home too. Ask Gd to help me I dont want this dog to go to the wrong dog fighter types but real good honest people who love pets and will be sure he doesnt get out of the yard. That all. Pseudo-dog napper saying goodbye.
PS I also took one of Rileys puppies from next door....oy vey!
HOpe 7-
Thank you for all your responces. I am going to go back and read them more carefullly.
Technically it is rectal cancer if you want to know, only in the first 3 inches and thank God not in my lymph nodes.
I had 8 visions that God is going to heal me the day before last.
THe most funny one was a cave man had a weak looking rear end in contrast to his hairy big body. Two shaftless arrows hit him from each side and formed an "X" over his fanny. They two side ways "V"s (for victoruy in Jesus?) had then narrowed his rear end meaning GOd will shrink the Tumor not Radio active seeds they inject or radioactive chemicals they drip into my blood.
"X" is chai in greek and means christ. THis and the other 7 visions make me believe it is God's will to heal me.
SO I told the doctors I am felling better and in a few months I will either be dead our they can take another biopsy to see if it is gone after I run the Jersey shore marathon or something like that.
I have a nice lemonade story to share...Gd gives me dogs...so I do what I can to find these dogs good homes if not their rightful owners. I have a hallelujah story for you today!!! Our Gd is wonderful is he not?
You know I found this beautiful, well kept, nicely trained black lab mix recently, well my dog alerted me to him by barking at 6 am. We began our goal to reunite owner and dog.
I called the newspaper too and followed up with them on Monday morning to be sure they would run an add. I recalled the radio station too and they too had a segment for lost pets. Three days went by and a lady came by and said shed take the dog but never came back...I knew right then that this dog had a rightful owner who was missing him and that wed find him his home.
This morning bright and early I got the call Id been waiting for and a woman answered that said a friend of hers had heard that someone had found a black lab and asked me if I still had him. She began to tell the story of how they had been looking for him for 4 days and were distraught. She said the dog belonged to her daugher and that she had trained this dog from birth and loved him so very much. That her daughter had been sick to death with worry and theyd be right over. I asked Gd to let the dog respond in such a way that I would know this was his rightful owner.
They pulled up and this dog went bizerk for this young girl. Who passed him up and ran straight to me and threw her arms around me and cried tears of joy and said, GD BLESS YOU, over and over again! She them went to the dog who couldnt contain himself with his happiness, it was more than obvious that this was her dog. The dog had eyes for no one else but this young girl. They embraced and she cried. She looked at me and said the words I had hoped to hear, she said, " Ive been praying and praying that I would find him!". I cry typing this because the feeling in my chest is over whelming and its like its going to explode with joy!
Then I told her all we had done to find her and that our last move would be Thur. after add had run to go down to the local store set up a booth and put a sign saying "free dog". She then said she worked at that store! I then said your kidding so does my daughter and I told her who she was and she said she had worked with her side/side the night before. Life is no coincidence!
When I told my daughter she was over joyed that we had helped her coworker too. Its in these things in life I find my joy, in the midst of so much pain and meaness, I have meaness toward to me on a daily basis from my enemies, but its these moments that make you smile. The moments you take what Gd gives to you and make lemonade from it that our enemies are put to shame. Gd bless you Chad. Dont lose faith, trust Gd, HE KNOWS WHATS BEST! And best of all, He loves you!